Monday, August 27, 2018
What you won't imagine about your child
When Max was a kid, our dining options were limited to a greasy spoon near our house. It was the only place where Max felt comfortable, likely because there was no din there and the servers knew him. He liked to sit in the same spot every time: the booth closest to the bathroom. The waitress would just take us directly there when we showed up.
It's impossible, when you are immersed in the realities of your child's challenges, to imagine that they could significantly improve or that life won't always be the same.
Maybe the doctors at the hospital or some specialist you met deflated your expectations; Dave and I encountered our fair share of grim doctors speaking their gloomanddoomspeak. Maybe you have learned to take baby steps of hope—if only he'd grasp an object, take a bite, sit up for a bit, move his legs a little, speak a syllable, poke his head into the event or activity before leaving—because you've accepted that development happens in inchstones, not milestones. Perhaps you dare not wish for any more or you risk despair should your child not achieve.
It's not that I couldn't imagine Max's successes; it's that I wouldn't let my heart and head go there.
I hoped that he'd walk someday, but wouldn't have imagined he'd not only walk but speed walk, too. I hoped that he'd talk someday, but wouldn't have imagined I'd have full-on conversations with him. I hoped that he'd read someday, but wouldn't have imagined he'd read both books and signs to the point where he helps navigate car rides. I hoped that Max would be able to feed himself someday, but wouldn't have imagined he and Dave would become buddies in food adventures.
These days, Max not only wants to visit new restaurants, he wants to go all the time. His preferences: steak and sushi, making him the most high-maintenance food person in our family. For his birthday in December he is already planning a trip to a fancy steakhouse to celebrate. For now, the occasional chain steakhouse will do.
Meanwhile, Max has also gotten into the habit of having two dinners, because #teen. Around 7:00 p.m. or so a few nights a week, Dave and Max will head out to Home Depot, aka Max's home away from home, where he checks out appliances for his dream home in Orlando. Lately, I've gotten calls from Dave around 8:30 to say that they are at a diner. "He's eating my food, too," Dave will text.
I. Would. Never. Have. Imagined.
In June, when I dropped Max off for his first prom, I left him seated at his class's table. There was a salad in front of him. Max doesn't eat lettuce—it's really hard for him to chew. There was a big slice of cucumber and tomato, too, choking hazards. I could have cut them up for him but figured that he didn't want me to do that in front of his friends. So I decided I'd hail a server and see if they would serve him chopped up cukes instead.
I leaned over, kissed him goodbye said, "Max, don't eat that salad, OK? See you later."
"I KNOW!" he said. "BYE."
I. Would. Never. Have. Imagined.
Just wanted to say. My! He is so handsome at his prom. It's hard to imagine my baby girl growing up into a young lady and doing things like this on her own but I know it will happen bc #time. Thanks for sharing!ReplyDelete
He truly looks so grown up here. Wow!ReplyDelete
Yup. I hear you. Marcus continues to amaze me all the time, too.ReplyDelete